What is love? baby don't hurt me...dont hurt me..no more!!

ugh. I have a dilema. i don't even know where to start. love is such a simple, yet such a complex thing. And i just don't know what to do anymore. I've had many many people ask...what are you going to do carmen? ( most of you know the story of my oh so fabulous love life. and if you do not..let me know and i will tell you;)) And the only answer i really have is...i've done everything i possibly can, far and beyond anything anyone should ever do for somebody to get their attention and i do not believe there is anything more i could do to make somebody realize that i'm what they need and want and BASICALLY already have. So i'm leaving it up to god. i've really REALLY done all i can. and somedays i really wonder if that truly was enough. but then i sit back, and look at everything i've done, everthing i've been through and i have to say...yes...that was enough. Almost too much really. i easily get frustrated though. when does it stop...or start? when do i get my happily ever after...or even a start to my happily ever after? I will be 24 next year and i hate that the society in this town make single people over the age of 21 feel old for not being married yet. i feel awful because i have such strong feelings for one person and because of that i don't see the need for dating because i'm like...what's the point? if that person i went on a date with started to have stronger feelings than me, i couldn't recpirocate the feelings back...i just feel like i'm constantly flying through a black hole...one i either want to be thrown out of...or finally come to just some sort of...i don't even know...stop to all this madness?
I live such a crazy life. I'm some sort of a massochist at times...i know i bring a lot of pain on to myself. what does one do?